Well, first I just want to say I thank God that he is merciful and gracious. We had a great sermon last night and I don't know what to say other than I needed it. I thank the Lord for giving us a the Goetsch Family, and for them being willing to let the Lord use them to do His work. So, back to my point here, some things I needed to deal with were brought to my attention very clearly. The Lord has been working in my heart for a few months and I was just finally able to give it to God. I was also able to tell my husband what I was struggling with which was no small task. Thankfully I was able to share this with a dear friend of mine who is very wise (though she would not openly say so ...although I do not get to do much with her because of circumstances she is a very dear friend to me) and she encouraged me to tell Tommy so he could help me. I knew I could talk to this lady given her testimony at ladies retreat. Just because it happened months ago does not mean the Lord cannot still use the things people graciously shared with us ladies. Anyhow, to some this would seem a minor sin but to me it was not. I had not told Tommy about it and I needed to. It was affecting our relationship in small ways, because I did not want to tell him so I was pushing him away a little. Like I said to me this is a huge thing because the one person I never keep anything from - well I had to tell him I was hiding something. Well, to make a long story short I wanted to say thank you to the ladies who prayed for me last night. I know you have no idea really what exactly you were praying for but because of your prayer and the Lords ever giving mercies and grace, I was able to tell my husband. The Lord has lifted a huge burden off of my shoulders and I feel so light this morning. I also have to say I am most thankful for having such a wonderful husband who shows me each and everyday his love for me and the love of Christ. I learn more and more how Christ-like my husband is. Yes, he is a jokester and to most more fun-loving rather than serious, but I am telling you he is a wonderful man and very much more like Christ than even I knew. He is understanding and kind, even tempered, forgiving, loving, compassionate, patient, a wonderful father and so much more. He also teaches me so much about my bible and so much about the Lord...sometimes through devotions but more so through the way he lives his life especially his life towards me. Well, I really just had a burden to share this with you first thing this morning and let you know be careful little mouth what you say, because even months later the Lord is still using the testimonies given at ladies retreat and working them for his good will & pleasure. Thank you all for being such wonderful friends I feel so blessed. Praise the Lord for his chastening but more so for loving us even as we are!